Posted on February 19, 2019
Imagining it flow back and fourth.
Imagining it crash or gently fall.
Imagining life compared to the water.
Imagine if we could just have it all.
A Big Bang or the Quiet collide.
Life can definitely give either.
So take the wheel and adjust your sail so you can guide yourself through the water.
As I go back and reminisce on when my daughter, Gracie was just about to turn one years old.
This photo came across the memories and it was her one year photo shoot I did at Diamond Lake WA.
Now, when I took this photo I merely was thinking how adorable and chunky she looked. When I look at it now I still see that but, I also simply see a little human gazing into the water.
Her thoughts? I have no idea.
Could she be thinking of simply swimming?
Could she be watching the waves as they slowly come to the shore and fall quietly?
Possibly she is thinking deeper than we will ever know or understand when they are this young.
Either way, this photo has become so much more beautiful to me than it even was before.
I now see something in this photo that allowed me to see some clarity almost 2 years later.
This photo inspired me to write what I wrote.
Have you ever pictured your feelings like a pulse? (Like waves) The up and down, up and down.
That, for some reason clicks with me in a way to write what I did.
It’s up to us when we want to smooth things out in life, (water) create peace in our environments and we allow what we want. It’s our choice.
We can not change the size of the waves or how the water falls. But, we can learn to ride and we can learn to get back up. Becoming stronger swimmers.
God gave us everything we need to succeed in this life with what we want.
Don’t let a hard crash keep you from all the gentle but, life-changing falls you will get to experience and don’t be afraid of the hard crashes. They will shape us all in the end because, most hard lessons do.
Embrace your journey and LIVE your life the way YOU intend to WANT to live.
Posted on January 11, 2019
Searching and longing to feel whole.
Finding the joy inside your Soul.
Life’s journey is beautiful and filled with magic.
It’s your job to jump out and grab it.
Being afraid is completely okay.
Just don’t let it keep you from growing day to day.
Your reason should never be your excuse.
But, more of an entrance to discover the real you.
So don’t give up and don’t give in.
Be stronger than the monster within.
”Dig deeper than the shadows burrow”
This poem was inspired by a simple picture as the one you see.
This morning, doing my normal scrolling through social media. I came across this post and it was from a plant farm here locally in Spokane.
I am a huge succulent fan so it grabbed my attention quickly. Seems as if succulents are the only plants outside of a cactus I can keep alive.
In the beginning of my journey to learning about succulents and growing them from babies to medium plants. I lost LOTS of leafs and my toddler like to share them with the pet cat.
So that would sometimes leave me with some naked looking succulents. Of course, I would naturally just throw away the broken pieces. Not even thinking to give the leaf a opportunity to regrow.
Just like any plant! Take the clipping and put it in water. Duh!
But, a little different with succulent. You can literally just leave that little guy out and it will regrow itself! I believe a tad bit of water on the leaf here and there with proper sunlight.
How incredible is this! I mean the thought to me that I was so quick to just give up and throw away an opportunity of regrowth.
I almost felt bad for all leafs I killed. Ha ha.
So, next time you feel like giving up quickly. Rethink what opportunity lies in the problem. I assure you there is most likely more life or option left in what you are given.
Sending positive vibes your way and wish you the best of your weekend.
Always remember, “You are STRONGER THAN YOU GIVE YOURSELF CREDIT.”
If it makes you feel better, I flipped off my coffee after it spilt on me this morning. #reallife 💋
Thanks for reading!
Posted on January 8, 2019
She was down, she was sad.
She felt lost, she felt mad.
The days were long, tiring and tough.
She held on though. Because, of love.
As the year went on and came to an end.
She finally realized it was time to shift, it was time to bend.
The moment had come when transforming was vital.
Change was happening and she was no longer idle.
She pushed on the gas and that’s all it took.
A shift in perspective to start a new book.
“Perspective is power”
This poem was literally off the top of my head and it signifies my last 12-16 months and the mental battles I have been dealing with. The war in my own head.
Suicidal thoughts, major anxiety which formed a depression that would just basically hold hands with my anxiousness all day long.
This battle will come to an end and my story ends with me winning either way.
Speak into yourself often. It’s more powerful then we are taught it is.
I hope you know and believe in yourself enough to know that whatever you are going through is not your end. It does not define your story and you can start a new page every single day that allows an ending YOU WANT.
Perspective has literally altered my mindset and it’s only getting sharper.
Someone once said, “Fear of what is coming in the future, is anxiety and fear of what has happened in the past, is depression.
Why do we not focus on the present?
Thank you for reading
Posted on December 10, 2018
Perhaps some would pat you on the back or tell you good job, but that is the open and close to the action or compliment if that is how it’s done nowadays?
Is that enough for you?
Should you keep that energy around?
These are valid and necessary questions to ask yourself sometimes.
Especially when you are trying to do something that is totally against the grain. Something that you are building from scratch. It is not just a clock in and clock out kinda lifestyle.
Most times you end up with people that understand nothing about what your doing or why you are doing it. Good thing you are not doing it for them. Because boy oh boy would that pressure be tough or what? Having to please everybody else, including you!
Worrying about how you do things or move your life around to fit people in.
People that are important but currently not more important than your immediate family and goals.
If this can’t be respected, encouraged or understood from the opposing party.
You my friend are in for a bit of a tougher road. Best way too put it.
Sometimes there comes a day when people want to do something for themselves and unfortunately there is no room for extra.
It’s strictly family and work until a goal is met and a break can be given.
For the first time your doing something for yourself.
Has this happened to you or happening?
Because I completely know how you feel.
In fact we could not be on more of the same wave link as we are with this.
You see, there are time frames on things in life.
Even life itself.
There are time frames in our teenage years, the mistakes we make and learn from.
Then the decade of our twenties which we end up enduring a lot of experience.
Then when you finish up with the end of your twenties you branch into your thirties.
Here is when you are thinking a lot more about the deeper things in life.
Not saying that this is everyone. But, you have to admit this explanation is pretty average.
Now thinking deeper could be encouraged from settling down for a long period of time with your spouse and creating a family.
Seeing the importance of so much we take for granted.
Understanding how quickly time goes by and the value we throw away by not utilizing the time more wisely.
You and everyone else, is not a qualified recipe.
You are your own ingredients and everyone else is their own formula.
It important to remember when you branch out and start following the path you want and life you deserve. That you simply go after it.
It’s vital to not allow anyone to devalue that or misunderstand the importance of it too you.
Do not rearrange your goals and priorities. This is the first mistake that so many make when they think they can do it all.
Don’t get me wrong, there are probably a lot of you reading this that manage all the things that life throws at you.
Let me ask you something, “How’s that going?”
It’s okay to say no. It’s okay to prioritize and completely cut people out.
It’s your life. Your terms.
Friends if you have people in your circle that don’t understand what your fighting for or what your dealing with in your life.
It’s okay. It’s not their responsibility to know or understand.
It is up to you if you want to share it.
It’s up to you if you want to include those that actually help you thrive and if they do.
Just be sure you keep your environment positive and encouraging for your path.
Because I know to well, it does not take much to break someone that is already feeling broken.
If you are someone that is reading this and dealing with an individual who might not be around much.
Show them love, show them grace, ask them what’s wrong.
Understand that if you know them, you’ll know they aren’t hiding for any reason other than a valid one.
God bless and thanks for reading my thoughts today friends.
Now go out and do that thing, for you.
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Posted on December 3, 2018
Someone once told me that if you don’t believe in yourself, nobody else will either.
At that moment the comment was not invited nor reciprocated in a positive manner.
Even though looking back it was merely a wise piece of advice.
I now use that small sentence to motivate me at my low moments of seeking out belief from others. To turn around looking in the mirror, knowing it’s my responsibility to first have the belief in myself before it would ever be given.
Why do we demean ourselves and the conviction of what we believe in or do?
Why do we not stand tall when someone asks us simply, “what do you do?”
Why do we shy away from our paths even when no career is in place?
Why do we care so much about other people and their opinions?
Those are simply just a few questions that came to mind which I know have been questioned. (Personal experience)
Do you ever ask yourself why we seek out validation?
Knowing a few individuals who have personality types that are absolute on needing validation.
Yet, behind doors they have zero belief in themselves.
How can there be true fulfillment?
Behind doors they cry in fear of what others think.
Why do we do this to ourselves?
Last year, blogging came into my life and forever has changed it. Being a stay at home mom with no consistent income and a husband who was tired and supporting us with loads of love.
You see when I began the journey a lot of people questioned me and my choice of what the hell I was doing or trying to learn too do.
Of course being the odd duck and always being outside the box.
But, the pressure actually got to me and the hiatus happened.
I had allowed them and the opinions to win.
How dare I!
After the hiatus and hard realization of feeling something missing, blogging came back to my life and here I am.
My point to the short story is simply that if I would of listened, if I would not have believed in myself enough.
This would not be here right now.
The improvement and knowledge gained would not be here right now.
The important thing was, the thing that was missing and created that short break.
Was belief in myself.
Being so busy seeking out validation and belief from other people, I simply forgot to see it in myself.
Which lead me to writing this short but sweet message. In hopes to encourage or enlighten another.
Next time you feel like your doing something for you and something that lights you on fire.
Something that you can not let go of and forget.
Don’t. Do not stop fighting for it.
Believe in yourself. Believe that you are capable of literally anything you allow your mind to learn and do.
Remember how powerful you are and that belief in yourself, is some type of power on its own.
BY GRACE THROUGH FAITH
journey to the little things