Posted on February 19, 2019
Imagining it flow back and fourth.
Imagining it crash or gently fall.
Imagining life compared to the water.
Imagine if we could just have it all.
A Big Bang or the Quiet collide.
Life can definitely give either.
So take the wheel and adjust your sail so you can guide yourself through the water.
As I go back and reminisce on when my daughter, Gracie was just about to turn one years old.
This photo came across the memories and it was her one year photo shoot I did at Diamond Lake WA.
Now, when I took this photo I merely was thinking how adorable and chunky she looked. When I look at it now I still see that but, I also simply see a little human gazing into the water.
Her thoughts? I have no idea.
Could she be thinking of simply swimming?
Could she be watching the waves as they slowly come to the shore and fall quietly?
Possibly she is thinking deeper than we will ever know or understand when they are this young.
Either way, this photo has become so much more beautiful to me than it even was before.
I now see something in this photo that allowed me to see some clarity almost 2 years later.
This photo inspired me to write what I wrote.
Have you ever pictured your feelings like a pulse? (Like waves) The up and down, up and down.
That, for some reason clicks with me in a way to write what I did.
It’s up to us when we want to smooth things out in life, (water) create peace in our environments and we allow what we want. It’s our choice.
We can not change the size of the waves or how the water falls. But, we can learn to ride and we can learn to get back up. Becoming stronger swimmers.
God gave us everything we need to succeed in this life with what we want.
Don’t let a hard crash keep you from all the gentle but, life-changing falls you will get to experience and don’t be afraid of the hard crashes. They will shape us all in the end because, most hard lessons do.
Embrace your journey and LIVE your life the way YOU intend to WANT to live.
Posted on January 24, 2019
Lately I’ve been questioning.
Purpose. Life and people.
How long before we find our purpose?
How long until people, stop, hating?
When will life become less cruel?
I ask myself this.
Why do we argue over things out of our control?
Why can’t we come to a center to be more whole?
These are things I ask myself.
It’s okay to feel the way you want.
It’s okay to voice your thoughts.
It’s okay if you want that and not this.
But don’t you try to tell me to shift.
I am who I am as you are who you are.
Can’t we be different?
These are things I ask myself.
Just be humble. Just be kind. Just be giving and leave no one behind.
This is what I’m told.
I live up to standard and I am a good person.
We should always remember to never lessen, any person or anything.
Lift one another because, this is how we can win.
Being right or being wrong is no longer priority.
Fact and truth are what should lead society.
These are things I tell myself.
For now I will only reflect,
The things I want most.
Fairness. Respect and truth at its best.
Stop the hatred and stop the diversity.
Create more love and open ability.
To see other sides and be open minded.
To learn to love others and not just be one sided.
These are things I speak to you.
Spread love. Spread kindness. But be fair and be true.
“Little humans are always watching what adults are doing. Not saying.”
I simply was inspired to write this by watching people sway from one another due to different paradigms.
It’s sad. It’s unfortunate. But, it is reality and it’s truth.
Christian, Muslim, Jewish or any other religion out there has created diversity due to lack of respect for another’s beliefs. You have every right to your own beliefs and spiritual practices.
Black, White, Asian, Hispanic and all other races have created diversity by titling ourselves as if we have color coded boxes to live inside.
What happen to human decency? What happen to love thy neighbor?
I just keep asking myself so many things and wonder why or why nots.
Anyways this poem is how I feel. I always write my poems quickly and deliver them without much thought.
I want to be sure I deliver pure and true feelings. Raw emotion.
I encourage you to compliment someone today and be sure to hug and spread love. It truly is contagious.
Thank you for reading
Posted on January 11, 2019
Searching and longing to feel whole.
Finding the joy inside your Soul.
Life’s journey is beautiful and filled with magic.
It’s your job to jump out and grab it.
Being afraid is completely okay.
Just don’t let it keep you from growing day to day.
Your reason should never be your excuse.
But, more of an entrance to discover the real you.
So don’t give up and don’t give in.
Be stronger than the monster within.
”Dig deeper than the shadows burrow”
This poem was inspired by a simple picture as the one you see.
This morning, doing my normal scrolling through social media. I came across this post and it was from a plant farm here locally in Spokane.
I am a huge succulent fan so it grabbed my attention quickly. Seems as if succulents are the only plants outside of a cactus I can keep alive.
In the beginning of my journey to learning about succulents and growing them from babies to medium plants. I lost LOTS of leafs and my toddler like to share them with the pet cat.
So that would sometimes leave me with some naked looking succulents. Of course, I would naturally just throw away the broken pieces. Not even thinking to give the leaf a opportunity to regrow.
Just like any plant! Take the clipping and put it in water. Duh!
But, a little different with succulent. You can literally just leave that little guy out and it will regrow itself! I believe a tad bit of water on the leaf here and there with proper sunlight.
How incredible is this! I mean the thought to me that I was so quick to just give up and throw away an opportunity of regrowth.
I almost felt bad for all leafs I killed. Ha ha.
So, next time you feel like giving up quickly. Rethink what opportunity lies in the problem. I assure you there is most likely more life or option left in what you are given.
Sending positive vibes your way and wish you the best of your weekend.
Always remember, “You are STRONGER THAN YOU GIVE YOURSELF CREDIT.”
If it makes you feel better, I flipped off my coffee after it spilt on me this morning. #reallife 💋
Thanks for reading!
Posted on January 10, 2019
Although defeat stood taller today,
The fight in me goes on.
I know what I am worth and I know that I am strong.
Anxiety can make things scary.
But one thing I know for sure, is that my will to win.
That is one thing that keeps me from giving in.
The dreams I see and the vision I have, is bigger than me.
Anxiety will never be allowed to defeat who I am.
Because, God created me for greatness and its my job to prove I can.
“Be brave in the face of fear” This is something I almost feel like I want tattooed on my body.
This little poem was inspired by my anxiety winning and keeping me from something I had been so excited for.
Almost four weeks ago, I purchased a Rachel Hollis “Made for more” move ticket. I have been raving about this for weeks and ridiculously excited to get pumped up and inspired with wisdom and nuggets of goodness.
If you do not know, one of the triggers I have is, walking in the dark alone. Going to a movie entailed me to have to potentially walk a good distance before I get inside. Which was also a parking garage and a location I rarely go.
Now, I know you are probably wondering why I sit and talk about conquering anxiety and being encouraging about it all.
But, I also know that being real is a characteristic I have shared about myself.
Well, this is some of that honesty. You cant always win. We just aren’t built for that.
Failure is apart of success. That is fact.
Which is why I chalked this up as a lesson and I told myself that, “this is apart of my learning curve.”
Acceptance is so vital when we fail or we end up just beating ourselves up. That shit just does not feel good.
So, my point was that I did not attend the show and I am sad about it. I am sitting with the sadness and accepting it so I can move on.
I know that I was doing what was best for my health and just overall, myself. Which needs to be practiced more. I think we all should practice self-awareness and self-love more often.
Anxiety got me last night and for some reason I feel okay with a little regret but also, happy with the gut choice I made.
Yeah, it just felt right.
Sometimes we just have to follow our gut even if it goes against everything we are wanting to do.
If anxiety or your defeat has got you down, remember that its okay to have bad days. Its okay to get defeated by the shit. Accept it and move on. Do not stay in your defeat. Which is why acceptance, I feel like goes hand in hand with defeat.
We will always face defeat and that is not in our control. But what we can do is, focus on accepting what is and learning what we can from it. This is where the journey to success comes and flows.
Thanks for reading ❤
Posted on January 8, 2019
She was down, she was sad.
She felt lost, she felt mad.
The days were long, tiring and tough.
She held on though. Because, of love.
As the year went on and came to an end.
She finally realized it was time to shift, it was time to bend.
The moment had come when transforming was vital.
Change was happening and she was no longer idle.
She pushed on the gas and that’s all it took.
A shift in perspective to start a new book.
“Perspective is power”
This poem was literally off the top of my head and it signifies my last 12-16 months and the mental battles I have been dealing with. The war in my own head.
Suicidal thoughts, major anxiety which formed a depression that would just basically hold hands with my anxiousness all day long.
This battle will come to an end and my story ends with me winning either way.
Speak into yourself often. It’s more powerful then we are taught it is.
I hope you know and believe in yourself enough to know that whatever you are going through is not your end. It does not define your story and you can start a new page every single day that allows an ending YOU WANT.
Perspective has literally altered my mindset and it’s only getting sharper.
Someone once said, “Fear of what is coming in the future, is anxiety and fear of what has happened in the past, is depression.
Why do we not focus on the present?
Thank you for reading
BY GRACE THROUGH FAITH
journey to the little things