Posted on February 19, 2019
Imagining it flow back and fourth.
Imagining it crash or gently fall.
Imagining life compared to the water.
Imagine if we could just have it all.
A Big Bang or the Quiet collide.
Life can definitely give either.
So take the wheel and adjust your sail so you can guide yourself through the water.
As I go back and reminisce on when my daughter, Gracie was just about to turn one years old.
This photo came across the memories and it was her one year photo shoot I did at Diamond Lake WA.
Now, when I took this photo I merely was thinking how adorable and chunky she looked. When I look at it now I still see that but, I also simply see a little human gazing into the water.
Her thoughts? I have no idea.
Could she be thinking of simply swimming?
Could she be watching the waves as they slowly come to the shore and fall quietly?
Possibly she is thinking deeper than we will ever know or understand when they are this young.
Either way, this photo has become so much more beautiful to me than it even was before.
I now see something in this photo that allowed me to see some clarity almost 2 years later.
This photo inspired me to write what I wrote.
Have you ever pictured your feelings like a pulse? (Like waves) The up and down, up and down.
That, for some reason clicks with me in a way to write what I did.
It’s up to us when we want to smooth things out in life, (water) create peace in our environments and we allow what we want. It’s our choice.
We can not change the size of the waves or how the water falls. But, we can learn to ride and we can learn to get back up. Becoming stronger swimmers.
God gave us everything we need to succeed in this life with what we want.
Don’t let a hard crash keep you from all the gentle but, life-changing falls you will get to experience and don’t be afraid of the hard crashes. They will shape us all in the end because, most hard lessons do.
Embrace your journey and LIVE your life the way YOU intend to WANT to live.
Posted on March 29, 2018
Dear Fellow Mom,
Today I was reading a letter from someone very dear to me. It brought tears of sadness, yet I was able to also share some tears with a smile. I share this with you today my fellow mom because while I was reading that letter. I took a moment to pay attention to how I was feeling so, that I could address how to feel better. While I came to the conclusion reading that letter I felt Empty, because I was missing the person that wrote it. Yet, I also felt a heart full of love for this person. For some reason, feeling those two things at that moment made me think about other Moms. How do you ask? I am really not 100 percent what actually led me to this analogy or thought process. Sometimes things just happen with absolutely no explanation. But let me try to explain the best I can.
Fellow mom you are not alone. That is where I would like to start. I know in the hustle and bustle of life we can forget the simplest of things such as remembering we are not alone. We as moms need the reminder every so often because our brains start to resemble what I like to refer too as “Tracers.” Can you relate? It can be tough juggling life and all that it throws at you. I know because, well I am alive too. I am not sure if you are a stay at home mom, a part-time working mom, full time working mom, or the OVER TIME career working mom. Either way in my eyes your on the same platform as me. You’re a Mom. No matter how busy or not busy you are, the feeling of emptiness happens. I just wanted to tell you, “It’s okay, to not be okay.” No one is going to judge you for feeling empty or alone. If someone ever was judgemental or mean to you for expressing that, I am so sorry. For me personally, all that validates is the person that judged you probably need a hug more than you do. I truly believe we need to stop the thought process that if someone is rude or cranky we automatically turn to sourness. That to me is the vicious circle I see happening with moms today. Yet here we are on facebook, blogs, tweets, Instagram and just internet in general. I see it everywhere. Moms complaining, crying, fighting and just plain being nasty to one another. Why? Why are we doing this when collectively if we all paid more attention we would see, that we ALL are saying the same thing. We just all deliver it differently. If only we could open our minds and be kind to one another. TRY and understand that we really all are fighting the same battle. Mom Life is hard. It does not make you weaker or less smart. Its just the way it is and there is absolutely no correcting the fact that raising a human is a lot of work. Feeling Empty sometimes is natural and normal. We as mothers give A lot out and we naturally do it with love. (Most the time) So I guess I wanted to just give you that little reminder that you are not alone, and its okay to feel empty sometimes. Just don’t forget you’re important and it is okay to give yourself grace. I encourage you to be easier on yourself and do more of reminding yourself how strong you are.
But, I suppose in the end if we only absolutely have to encounter feeling Empty, at least we can see the bright side that we have a Full Heart.
Another Fellow Mom
Posted on March 29, 2018
It’s 2018 and yet we still have yet to find a proper way to navigate while we shop. You see, shopping carts are only a mere way to keep your child(ren) in an over-sized basket and basically, so you don’t have to carry your items. Convenient? Yes. So I was shopping with Gracie the other day. That is my daughter for those of you who don’t know. First off why as parents do we always give in to handing the little one something, off the shelf to keep them occupied? I mean don’t get me wrong, its pretty simple for me right now at Gracie’s age. She likes soft things, so I just usually find some cheap throw blanket with a fun pattern. She always falls for it and it usually is only like $3. Win! For now.
I know once she turns 3 and older I am guessing. The demands are gonna get higher and I don’t just mean a bigger toy. I mean higher in cost. Ha Ha! Lord knows we can only do what we can do. I cant buy a dang barbie every day. So whats a Mom to do? Well, I wouldn’t be so upset if I could be gifted a seed to grow a Money Tree. I mean, I will do ALL the work. I will dig the hole, I will plant it gracefully, I will water it every day, and I will keep it happy and healthy. Please? Lord… Please. Ha Ha.
Also, I have noticed that carts come in handy for a short list of reasons. But one thing they are not good for is fitting in the isles they are made to fit in. I mean goodness, I understand space is money. However, the customer is the money. Which entails us to space, am I right? Those carts and I will always have a Love/Hate relationship. Plus, most the time the buckles are busted for Gracie’s seat. Where is the maintenance? Ha. So with that in mind, I firmly believe that in order for there to be any sort of direction or guidance thru the chaos of shopping. It should be the placement of shopping lights. YUP! I said it. Red light, yellow light, Green light… Go!
I mean, can you picture that? Ha Ha. Future shopping? I guess only time will tell.
Until then, I will continue daydreaming about that Money Tree.
Posted on March 26, 2018
Let me Explain. You see everyone told me prior to having a baby that I was in for it when they turn two. I’m thinking, okay I can handle some nutty midget. No problem. I got this. Plus I knew that if my husband and I were good at anything. It is working together as a team. We just had that from the get-go of our friendship into our romantic relationship. We re grateful for sure that we can work together so well when it comes to solving problems.
Okay so back on track here. I want to explain that I am here to tell you that the “Terrible Twos” do exist. I’m not there with Gracie yet, but I know it is just around the corner. Plus, I’ve heard it time and time again. Now what I want to share with you is this.
Terrible twos are real. However, the moment you have that little breathing life in your arms. It is tough from the get-go. Day one is all when it really starts. See, this is obviously just my take and perspective. But I mean I feel like Day one they are just little Unicorn Turds. Ha Ha. I mean it in the sense of Unicorns are rare and awesome. But turds are well, turds! So They are Awesome/Rare turds. Ha Ha! I mean I felt like that was a pretty spot on analogy. Either way, I felt like sharing this. Perhaps a laugh will be given, a smile made or quite possibly you feel, just the same way.
BY GRACE THROUGH FAITH
journey to the little things