I remember it was sometime in March when things got a lot more real with Quarantine and the social distancing. Ever since then, life has sort of just been a little weird.
However that could simply be because it isn’t what I was?
Either way, it’s different and I’m pretty sure things will not go back to how it was. Things from here on out will forever be a new way.
Now I don’t want to get too deep into all the serious stuff going on in the world, mostly because it’s not why I am here right now.
I have been pretty focused on trying to make recipes and share. I’ve been working on being consistent and even if that means I didn’t share a recipe, I show up to share something. I’m here to be an open book, to share daily happenings, feelings, mom life, food, just basically my lifestyle and keeping it real with you always.
Well today was one of those ordinary mom days where nothing too exciting happened. Outside of the daily visit to go feed grandmas chickens, play with bubbles in the sunshine, hang together as mom and daughter, practice letters, number and of course lots of dancing you. Plus I’m sure you know as a almost 4 year old she is currently as emotional as it gets. Yikes! Ha ha!
I don’t know about you, but having a toddler little Girl is like trying to tame a tornado inside your house or heard a shit load of cats. You just can’t. I mean that light heartedly. Ha.
Either way, with all the time I have been with Gracie and have not gone anywhere else besides grandmas. I have learned so much about her and she is learning about mommy more too.
Another thing that has come from this staying home with her has been understanding space is healthy. Nobody can spread 24/7 with anyone and not get crazy with one another. Her and I have been non stop for over 3 months and we are both in the know we need to outsource! Ha ha! So what did I do?
I hired a babysitter once a week to give some personal time for myself. This is a big move for me, because I’ve always been sketchy about letting anyone watch her. But this quarantine has honestly taught me and shown me the importance of space for her and I both. I honestly feel very confident in this move and really hope some time can be spent just solely continuing to look for employment of some sort and be able to hire her for more hours.
Having private care can get spendy, but knowing what I can know and feel assured with is worth it to me. She will also get socialized because the sitter is awesome and will be good about that. It’s her cousin.
Anyways it was a great day and I just want to say, “I know a lot of people in the world are feeling a lot of things like anxiety, depression, fear, anger or even confusion. It’s okay to feel that and I would be lying if I said I have not felt all of those through this.”
I just want to encourage you to try to see a paradigm that can allow some positive outlook. How I have been so doubtful that any of this could be good in any way, to shift my mind in knowing good has come out of it. Every single day something good comes from it. We just have to seek it.
Seems so silly to say that bubbles and chickens were and are such a highlight to our days. It’s the little things in life.